It makes me so sad that people hurt others and break their own hearts, that alleviating pain destroys so many from the inside out, and we must endure misfortune and loss, especially if we allow ourselves to love with the full volume of our souls.
@Home Studio – 267th poem of the year
Runner ups for the Sad photos to accompany my poem:
Artifact M123ST was found in the ruins of one of the few habitations to have survived the cataclysm mostly intact. It is a six-sided rectangular box. We are unable to ascertain the container’s true purpose but feel certain it must have been used to store items of religious or spiritual significance, or it has also been suggested that they were used as protective casings for one of their most valuable assets–sand. It is known that sand became a valuable commodity prior to the cataclysm, as it was one of the fundamental, critical components of building materials in their world. Undecipherable characters appear to be inscribed in patterns, though the sample size is too small to determine if it is representative of language, or merely decorative scrawling. Of special interest is the latching mechanism that holds the lid of the box closed. A small rectangular indentation can be pressed, releasing the latch, which permits the lid to spring open. A satisfying click indicates the lid has been closed securely when the latch reengages. We know little of these primitive people who lived before the cataclysm, but artifacts such as these offer a glimpse into their lost culture.
Maybe the way I wash this knife with precision, erasing the past with friction, soap, and molecules is in some little way the meaning of life.
Maybe scraping the crusty remnants of drippage on countertops until the rag slides smooth is its own reward somehow.
Maybe the fact that hot water melts butter residue from a dish, inviting it to slip effortlessly from its former state and find freedom in movement is the most real thing I know, or think I know, or want to know because knowing is somehow solid, purposeful, sure, and I suspect that I know nothing, or there is nothing to know, or knowing means nothing, thus, washing a knife is the meaning of life.
@Home Studio – 264th poem of the year
Runner ups for the Washing Dishes photos to accompany my poem (AI had a hard time with this one):
I am always fascinated by people unafraid to share the gruesome details of their lives with the rest of us so we can hold them up to the light and examine their every wart and crack, wrinkle and roll of fat like specimens. But the glass jar with pink paper inside that made the cover look warm and inviting was a trap that forced me to witness her most vulnerable moments, and now I feel sad and embarrassed for her.
@Home Studio on 9/17/24 @ 7:45pm – 261st poem of the year (After reading Safekeeping-some true stories from a life by Abigail Thomas.)
Thomas, Abigail. Safekeeping -some true stories from a life. Anchor Books, 2001.
Runner ups for the Safekeeping photos to accompany my poem:
I know how to hold a cockroach. That is not the problem. The real problem is in the willingness to hold the cockroach because I don’t want to. I absolutely know intellectually that the cockroach will not harm me, and I absolutely know spiritually that cockroaches are God’s creatures, too, and I absolutely know psychologically that the exercise is good for my psyche and all that jazz, but I still don’t want to extend my hand and allow the cockroach to climb aboard and scurry all around. I just got chills up my spine thinking about it because the story is still too strong that my mind makes up, and I’m just not ready to let it go.
@Home Studio – 260th poem of the year (After reading How to Hold a Cockroach by Matthew Maxwell.)
Maxwell, Matthew. Illustrations by Allie Daigle. How to Hold a Cockroach – A book for those who are free and don’t know it, Hearthstone, 2020.
Runner ups for the Cockroach photos to accompany my poem:
My grandmother Mema’s father’s father Grandpa Carroll was an extremely superstitious man who came down hard on anyone who walked under a ladder or spilled salt without throwing some over the shoulder or broke a mirror without taking proper precautions. Mema did not remember what the proper precautions were, as she was a small child when she got harshly scolded for spinning a chair on one leg in the dining room, and her father had to come to her defense, reprimanding his own father for spouting such nonsense. He hated black cats, unlucky numbers, stepping on cracks, the opening of umbrellas in the house, speaking of the dead, and she thinks he told her about the need to keep an axe under the bed when a woman is in labor to protect her from evil spirits about. She found his stories both horrifying and confusing, since her parents countered that they were not true. As she grew, her only superstition became the spells of prayer she uttered without ceasing to protect her loved ones, which I know saved us all on a number of occasions.
Jenni married an Indian man, painted her white skin brown, and adopted a Hindi accent. She wore a simple cotton sari as though it was a ball gown and dispensed sage advice with smooth tilts of the head, as though born in Mumbai.
@Home Studio – 254th poem of the year (After a dream I had about a white friend of mine completely appropriating Indian culture.)
Runner ups for the Indian Jenni photos to accompany my poem:
Last night I saw a giant humpback whale swimming in the sky, diving deep through the air water to the ocean floor land where I stood in awe of its graceful power that both terrified me and kept me rooted in place admiring its beauty and grace.
@Home Studio – 252nd poem of the year
Runner ups for the Whales in the Sky photos to accompany my poem:
Making the call to end a life weighs heavily on the spirit, even if the conclusion is an act of mercy for the beloved by relieving pain and suffering. Only those who have spent years with another in close proximity, shared their lives intimately, and were tasked with taking the initiative to usher in the end know the reluctance with which the decision is made and how heavy the heart to speak the truth that life has become a burden rather than a blessing.
@Home Studio – 247th poem of the year
Runner ups for the Making the Call photos to accompany my poem:
COVID’s curse is that it lingers, hangs menacingly in the air, and recapitulates its previous threats with symptomatic diminishment. Not as serious, less deadly, return to work after only five days now, means everyone shares the virus and those concerned are viewed as disproportionately cautious. Do they remember the terror so recently fresh to those whose cats lost their owners and children lost their grandmothers and we lamented the death counts daily? This time when my husband got sick and I could not touch him for a week, I still checked to make sure he was breathing and sheltered in place and social distanced, though no one uses that language these days anymore…so 2020 of me. Perhaps it is the lack of the sense of smell that was stolen from me or the worsened sense of vision that was purloined or the lessened oxygenation ability that was pilfered or possibly the energy I once had to function all day that was looted after my fourth run-in with the offender who is nothing more than an unwelcome, tiresome loiterer.
@Home Studio – 246th poem of the year
Runner ups for the COVID photos to accompany my poem: