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🌕 My Friend, Fear:

All images created by Rebekah Marshall’s prompts using AI on Gencraft.com website.

Fear walks with me, not ahead of me — it is the shiver that proves I’m expanding, the hush before my next leap, the echo that reminds me I’m alive and rewriting the rules I was taught to obey.

💬 Why This Resonates for Me:

  • “Fear walks with me, not ahead of me”
    ➤ I’m learning to hold fear as a companion, not a leader — I’m still in control.
  • “The shiver that proves I’m expanding”
    ➤ Honors that fear is a signal of growth, not failure. I’m not broken — I’m stretching.
  • “The hush before my next leap”
    ➤ Speaks to my propensity to reflect deeply before making bold moves — and that those silences are sacred, not stuck.
  • “The echo that reminds me I’m alive and rewriting the rules I was taught to obey”
    ➤ This is about healing financial trauma, breaking inherited scarcity mindsets, and forging my own path — with fire and grace.

(I am doing the writing exercises in the back of the book You are a Badass at Making Money by Jen Sincero, and this topic was about fear. I am also learning to trade futures, so the art is related to the charts we use to make the trades.)

Tornado Girl

(Poem 328 for 2024 – I am writing a poem a day)

AI Generated image I prompted on Gencraft.com https://gencraft.ai/p/18xmpI https://gencraft.ai/p/f9l3uc https://gencraft.ai/p/uAWdon

When stuff stirs sideways and begins to knot up
in that twisting way, my heart starts to beat
like thunder, hail pounding in my head
to the rhythm of chaotic swirling
pain that builds and swells
with groaning as I eat
houses and cars,
ripping peace
to slivered
shreds
.

@Home Studio – 328th poem of the year

Runner ups for the Tornado Girl photos to accompany my poem:

Missing Foundations

(Poem 294 for 2024 – I am writing a poem a day)

AI Generated image I prompted on Gencraft.com https://gencraft.ai/p/eoKAqu

How do we recover
when foundations
go missing?
The certainty with which
we spoke of reality,
as though stable forces
controlled destiny,
becomes tenuous.
Others blather on with
their platitudes
and absolute truisms,
while we nod along,
attempting to maintain
a neutral expression.
The walls that once
protected us
are long gone.

@Home Studio – 294th poem of the year

Cave of Fears

(Poem 292 for 2024 – I am writing a poem a day)

AI Generated image I prompted on Gencraft.com https://gencraft.ai/p/sldLEB

There is a cave
in the land of lost time
where forgotten dreams die.

If one ventures near
the mouth of the cave
a sense of apathy
and despair descends.
If someone musters
the courage to enter,
they’ll be greeted by a cold
chill and a sense
that someone is watching
from the darkest recesses.

Are those outlines of skulls
tucked along the edges
of the cave floor?
And what are the veins
of liquid seeping
from cracks in the walls?
The mind will see the worst
when fear begins to creep
deep into the suffering soul,
for no one is drawn
into the cave unless
they are overcome by pain.

Though time does not exist
inside the cavernous vault,
it can feel like decades
spent wandering through
corridors of damp labyrinthian
passageways and tunnels.
Each bend and fissure
holds new anticipation
of terror, certain death
by sinkhole, falling
into an abyss, never
to be found.
Cries of dread echo
from the underworld,
but nothing materializes.
In the eerie gloom,
hope is obscured,
a claustrophobic panic
envelopes the heart
of even the most intrepid.

And then one day,
after struggling through
a crawlway, the visitor
is faced with a sump.
The only way out is through,
but submerging the self
requires a strength of will
nearly impossible to imagine.
If the lost one dissolves
their doubt and dives,
they will emerge
into a glorious chamber,
a sanctuary of sparkling
stalactites and stalagmites,
and brilliant light
streaming in from an opening.

The confused explorer
begins the remembering
of the world they forgot
and climbs the limestone
ledges until surfacing,
stunned and blinking
at the blinding sky.

Unsure how or when,
they realize that all fear
dissipated somewhere
along the way, or perhaps
it was collected by the cave.

@Home Studio – 292nd poem of the year

Brainstorm

(Poem 201 for 2024 – I am writing a poem a day)

AI Generated image I prompted on Gencraft.com https://gencraft.ai/p/yq5fQF

Electrical misfirings initiate
honeycomb spirals of lightning
that cascade matrix-like through
the catacombs of the mind
disturbing the precarious balance
that is control of limbs, thought,
time, consciousness, and memory.
Two halves of one whole exchange
forked bolts resulting in prostrate
paroxysms of convulsant chaos.
Abject terror seizes the onlooker
whose own backfiring mainframe
cracks from the life-altering reality
that tranquility can be upset in a
split second by invisible storms
hidden deep within a beloved.

@Home Studio – 201st poem of the year (After my grandson’s seizure.)

Runner ups for the Brainstorm photos to accompany my poem:

Bloody Mary

(Poem 189 for 2024 – I am writing a poem a day)

AI Generated image I prompted on Gencraft.com https://gencraft.ai/p/YhrjGf

Catoptromancy
Dark room
Single candle
Running water
Spin 3 times
Look in the mirror
Ghostly corpse
Chanting her name
Bloody Mary
Bloody Mary
Bloody Mary

 @Home Studio – 189th poem of the year

Runner ups for the Bloody Mary photos to accompany my poem:

Little Miss Muffet

(Poem 144 for 2024 – I am writing a poem a day)

AI Generated image I prompted on Gencraft.com https://gencraft.ai/p/91qgAd

Little Miss Muffet
sat on a tuffet,
eating her curds and whey;
along came a spider,
who sat down beside her,
and frightened Miss Muffet away.

The very next day
she came out to play,
determined to overcome fear;
the spider returned,
and Miss Muffet learned,
to say hello with cheer.

Now that she’s older,
Miss Muffet is bolder,
and nothing affects her outlook;
she stays outside,
takes everything in stride,
and continues reading her book.

@Home Studio – 144th poem of the year

Lesson 14 The Way of the Wizard

(Poem 93 for 2024 – I am writing a poem a day)

AI Generated image I prompted on Gencraft.com https://gencraft.ai/p/UQREqT

Pain is not truth;
it is simply what we must endure to find truth.
This body we are experiencing is an embroidered flower,
merely representative,
beautiful,
but artificial,
not the full living embodiment of the flower.
Thoughts are guests checking in and out of our quaint inn,
just as this form is temporary,
a visitor who will travel on.
We take death so personally,
spend a lifetime preventing loss,
projecting fear from our own ignorance,
denying our own place in the circle.
It is only possible to lose what is not real.
Even if we think we’ve lost everything,
what remains is what is real.

@Home Studio – 93rd poem of the year

Chopra, Deepak. The Way of the Wizard: Twenty Spiritual Lessons for Creating the Life You Want. New York, United States of America, Harmony Books, 1995, pp. 96-101.

Runner ups for the circle of life photos to accompany my poem:

Tempest in a Teacup

(Poem 63 for 2024 – I am writing a poem a day)

AI Generated image I prompted on Gencraft.com https://gencraft.ai/p/l7A9cK

There’s a tempest in my teacup
that I don’t know how to quell
despite attempts to cool the storm
and break the awful spell.

Sometimes I simply tarry awhile,
take time to make some toast;
eventually things settle down-
no more than an hour at most.

Believe me, I wish I knew a way
to keep things calm and still,
but once my tea begins to roar
no one can oppose its will.

Perhaps someday my tea will learn
to behave like a proper cup,
but until then I’ll gently stir,
wait for peace and drink up.

@Home Studio – 63rd poem of the year

I Fell Today

(Poem 61 for 2024 – I am writing a poem a day)

AI Generated image I prompted on Gencraft.com https://gencraft.ai/p/7pYBlB

I fell today while walking Kenji
the short distance to the dog run.
I did not trip, stumble, collapse,
slip, stub my toe, nor faint dead away.
It was as though the earth moved
from beneath my feet and there
was nothing left to do but lie down-
the slow motion forward momentum
reminiscent of a tree felled by rot.

My shocked dog panicked, then
sprung into action and proceeded to
administer CPR square in the middle
of my back while head-butting me,
attempting to bring me to. Trouble is,
I was not in need of any of these
ministrations; my breathing was
startled, but sure, and adrenaline
ensured no loss of consciousness.

I’ve dreaded this day for over a
year; “Whatever you do, don’t fall,”
the surgeon’s only instructions
like telling a bird not to fly, a fish
not to swim, a dog not to give CPR
to its helpless person in need.
So, fall, I did, but break, I did not.
A little scraped, a lot bruised, but
no longer dreading the first fall.

@Home Studio – 61st poem of the year