You are not the kind of book with a slick jacket I can collect on my shelf; nor can I mark my place with sticky notes, gum wrappers, or old receipts.
You are an audio book with raucous laughter, one-liner quips of witty dialogue, random philosophical musings about religion, and societies latest great failings.
Sometimes I need to slow the playback speed and crank up the volume to discern the subtle nuances of your narration and tune my ear to your frequency.
Other times I realize you’re on full blast in the middle of a raunchy scene in public rather than coming through my headphones like a gentleman.
When my husband stops at Bucee’s on road trips, he always brings me home Beaver Nuggets, the sea-salted caramel kind that I love so much. I have told him many times not to get them for me because they are too fattening, but he knows better than to listen to me when I say silly things like that and buys them anyway. Come to think of it, I’m shaped a bit like Bucee the fluffy beaver, so I wonder if his stuffing is beaver nuggets like mine.
My granddaughter left a gift of lavender bath salts for me on my desk with a sweet little message written in half cursive half print on a sticky note. She left one for her DāDā, and probably everyone else in the house as well, because she loves to leave treats for others when she finds a way. I am glad my prickly, lovely, argumentative, emotional, explosive, beautiful, forgetful girl has a heart full of love.
“Vengeance is mine,” sayeth Ceasar, until his apemanity kicks in and he is able to be better than human and allow mercy to unfold naturally. Who gets to determine the value of a life on this rock hurtling through space we call home? Does intellect trump simple existence or one form of communication imply worth over another? Is birdsong less a language than human speech or an elephant’s rumble less valid than words? Someone I know once said their life would not be affected by animals going extinct and it made me sad because I believe the tiny pieces of our humanity that perish with each species we forget to save hasten our own souls’ decay.
@Home Studio (after watching War for the Planet of the Apes at Greg’s house with Greg and his family, Debbie, and Celinda on 5/18/24) – 130th poem of the year
Matt Reeves et al., War for the Planet of the Apes. Los Angeles, CA, 20th Century Fox Home Entertainment, 2017.
Runner ups for the War of Apes photos to accompany my poem:
New York David is decisive. He attends business meetings and lunches with clients and visits rose gardens simply to see the sights as a tourist. New York David stays in hotels and spends evenings at bars being someone’s wingman. He’s an expert in a field I do not fully understand the particulars of, nor do I want to invest the energy to understand because life is too short…all I know is that New York David has planes to catch and important matters to settle and will be home Thursday with his suitcase and weariness ready to turn back into Texas David who lounges in pajamas at home with his wife and dogs.
One, two, three…maybe four prescriptions need to be filled because I grow old and less able to take pride in health and vigor like I used to, as though I somehow earned the youthful ease with which my joints bent, and my muscles contracted instantly, and every sinew responded to my whim with instant graceful movement; those people who complained of aches and stiffness were somehow at fault for their functional inadequacies and I did not recognize my future reflection in their eyes because that woman’s lined face was contorted with pain.
Jump off a building, hang out of a plane, get shot from a cannon; it sounds insane. The unknown people who pull the stunts deserve to receive the credit for once. They make the actors look like heroes for real with dangerous magic and feats surreal. All the risk, none of the fame, light them on fire to play the game.
@Home Studio (after watching The Fall Guy with David, Boaz, and Ariel at the theater) – 127th poem of the year
Leitch, David. The Fall Guy. 87 North Productions, 2024.
Photograph I took from inside Buddha Hall at The Writing Barn on 5/5/24.
The oak trees stand guard, keeping bothersome reality at bay, ensuring sanctuary for these tireless artists of word and story, providing respite from judgment long enough for imagination to begin the process of creative unfolding, for that is the only way the art is born fresh and raw, unfiltered. Yes, the work of shaping, peeling, whittling away the excess will be done to perfect and sculpt the mass into something more palatable, but the first bloody moments of pain and relief, joy and confusion, brilliant bursts of kaleidoscopic invention spilled out into the universe deserve to be protected. The oak trees understand their assignment and take their oaths very seriously, and for their loyalty, I am grateful.
@The Writing Barn: Buddha Hall – 126th poem of the year
Photograph I took in Buddha Hall at The Writing Barn on 5/5/24.
There always seems to be someone who hates, whose resentment fills their soul until nothing else can fit and the surrounding world must pay. Everyone who endures suffering must decide whether to heal or hurt, a weighty choice, for it affects the fate of your trajectory henceforward. In matters of the heart, as in matters of state, humanity should remain centered in our judgment, and the resulting actions must be measured carefully to create the least harm to all involved.
@The Writing Barn: Buddha Hall (after watching Dawn of the Planet of the Apes at Greg’s house with Greg and his family, Debbie, Celinda, and David on 5/4/24) – 125th poem of the year
Reeves, Matt, et al. Dawn of the Planet of the Apes 20th Century Fox, 2014.