There’s a lonely monster I know by the name of Stan. He wanders the desert to avoid the face of man. We ran into one another once on a camping trip. I was with a tour group until I gave them the slip. I came across Stan warming by a lovely little fire. I assured him I wasn’t scared; he called me a liar. With his eyes downcast, he told me about his past. Then I told him about mine, though he never asked. We agreed we were both the biggest lost cases, not good with people and ashamed of our faces. I remember the stars were quite beautiful that night. Then Stan stood and stretched to his full height. I was shocked and speechless, to say the least. He was a hulking form, a most magnificent beast. I apologized for staring, and he chuckled a bit and declared me his long-lost mutual hypocrite. See, together we each judged ourselves the worst, as though from birth we both had been cursed, though he had told me to give myself a break, and I had preached that he deserved a fair shake. When I eventually said I had to rejoin my group, he patted my head, though he had to stoop. We agreed to meet at this same spot once a year to sit around the fire and drink some beer. I’ve never told anyone of this once-a-year plan, but I visit a lonely monster by the name of Stan.
Little Miss Muffet sat on a tuffet, eating her curds and whey; along came a spider, who sat down beside her, and frightened Miss Muffet away.
The very next day she came out to play, determined to overcome fear; the spider returned, and Miss Muffet learned, to say hello with cheer.
Now that she’s older, Miss Muffet is bolder, and nothing affects her outlook; she stays outside, takes everything in stride, and continues reading her book.
No matter where I go, there I am, at the center of my universe, with every vector of possibility extending outward to infinity and beyond. When I can settle and still the turmoil of my soul, I can see the heavens in my own being. I know the sun does not truly rise in the sky, nor is the horizon the edge of the world, yet I live as though I believe the earth is flat and this is all there is to my being. It is a lie that the past creates the present and the present creates the future, when memories of the future can inform the present and change my very perception of the past I thought I knew. I can live tomorrow’s dream today if only I choose to look beyond the veil and accept that I am a wizard, rather than a human bound by fate. I am the relationship between nowhere and now here because I have localized eternity to this point in time and choose to focus on this present.
@Home Studio – 143rd poem of the year
Chopra, Deepak. The Way of the Wizard: Twenty Spiritual Lessons for Creating the Life You Want. New York, United States of America, Harmony Books, 1995, pp.109-115.
Runner ups for the Eternity photos to accompany my poem:
My grandson graduated from pre-K and I was moved, not by his adorable singing and dancing and attempt at the gestures to match his teacher, but by the tears flowing down his mother’s cheeks while watching her sweet boy performing his heart out. When I see her love for her children, I am transported to similar moments in our past when I watched her or her brother with the pride only a mother can contain, so full of love and joy and fear and anticipation that nothing else exists beyond the perfection of their little contribution.
One minute she’s harvesting seeds from dried flowers she plucked from her own garden, the next she’s trying on new nails she got on sale from her latest favorite glamour website. She flits around handling five children clamoring like baby birds for her food and her praise because nothing is better than Erica approval. Through it all she’s telling stories, sharing the latest gossip, and exclaiming such things as I can’t, ain’t nobody got time for that, go lay down, I got time today, who are you talkin’ to, not on my watch, I can hear you, you know, the call is coming from inside the house, get somebody else to do it, boy, bye, they’re all broken. And we laugh and cry and sip tea and share our lives.
An eagle egg cradled against the heart incubates a hunter, and nurtures a lifelong bond. Only those who know the song to call the great birds will be saved with Noa from the flood. It seems a world where all species somehow coexist would be best for everyone. Why must someone always strive to dominate others rather than share space? Caesar gave his life to bring his clan to the promised land where “ape shall not kill ape.” According to the tenets he espoused, everyone should show generosity and compassion. Raka of the Order of Caesar led by example when he offered food to the Nova. Life lost is his recompense, and Mae safeguarding her own rather than caring for all.
@Home Studio – 140th poem of the year
Ball, Wes, director. Kingdom of the Planet of the Apes. 20th Century Studios, 2024.
I started back swimming, well, this illusion of me that is twice as big as the real me who is surprised every time I look in the mirror and see a fat lady there. She is a lovely fat lady, don’t get me wrong, she has a kind expression and sincere eyes that seem a little sad the way they turn down. Her face is not memorable, but that is nothing new since I often don’t recognize people by their faces alone. I need to see the way she moves through the water where even the biggest sea turtles can float.
Is that a bullet hole there in the drive thru menu board at the McDonald’s off Mopac? Maybe, maybe not, but what does it say that my first thought leans toward that being the case? What is this world coming to? is the thing older people say to one another in these moments. They shake their heads and look at the ground, implying life used to be less complicated. When did I become them, sucking my teeth in disbelief, saying, As I live and breathe?